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No spoilers and colorful language abound!
There is nothing extraordinary about Iced, as is true about many new novels, creating the foundations for new characters. It features a mostly irrelevant plot tailor made to showcase these people we are supposed to fall in love with or grow to hate with a deep and powerful loathing. The tricky situation here is this is not an entirely new novel, rather a continuation of a long standing, multi-layered, extremely loved universe that has been masterfully created by KMM. The readers were introduced to the disjointed blubbering monologue that is Dani in the Fever series. Nearly everyone I've read or spoken with went into Iced with an active dislike of Dani "Mega" O'Malley but in true zombie fashion, we followed the scent of blood. With nothing more, other than hope for a mention of more Mac and Barrons, and even the die hard "never gonna happen" fans decided to pick up Iced. Here you find myself and Cory who decided to enter into this journey hand in hand, what we are willing to do in the name of love, sigh. Although we have entirely different feelings on this book, I think her review is fantastic!
There is a truly magnificent moment that only a few readers are blessed with, and most don't know it has happened until they near the end of a book. This slow sickly anxiety creeps in and you know the experience is soon to be over and you may have to wait years for the next installment. You whiz through a series, lulled by an author's magic, weaving you in a precious little cocoon, where you truly shut off and allow it to take you away. A space where these characters are real, the emotions you experience while reading are tragically tangible, you are at the whim of the pages. I believe this is what is commonly referred to as becoming a fangirl. It's a term used in jest most often but I believe it's a uniquely special journey where you lose bits of yourself and get to live another life. I am a KMM Fangirl.
I have to admit I was pleasantly surprised how comfortable I found Dani's inner voice to be and was practically rejoicing that it wasn't what we had experienced in the Fever books. When I said there is nothing extraordinary about Iced it's the truth, however there is one very large exception, one I never could have anticipated. As I mulled my way through Iced, slowly at first and then voraciously, I found myself floating along with all her emotions, her interactions, her rage, her self-perseverance, her self-denial, I was completely woven up all that is Dani. I finished this book the same day I started it, and immediately (as in went to my kindle screen and found the beginning) started to read it again. The second time around is when it all clicked, I felt as though I was reading a characterized version of my 14 year old self. You know those absurd cartoons where they take something identifying to you personally and blow it up to absurd proportions? Yeah... that. Single mother? Check. Messed up childhood? Check. Incapable of even conceptualizing any kind of intimate relationship? Check. Completely and totally self reliant? Check. Lack the emotional maturity to understand why you know things? Check. Incredibly observant? Check. Desperately searching for some sense of stability? Check. It goes on and on down the list.
You think you know yourself and them BAM!
No wonder I like her, right? I'm vain as hell.
I'll just have to dig around in my brain another time and suss out what the hell all of this means, but right now what it means is I have a never ending soft spot for Dani and unwavering faith in KMM. I know she's building something spectacular, and I trust her implicitly. On that note let's talk about this damn book.
aaaaaand that's about where I blank out. I can't talk about the things I don't like in this book because it's all murky and confusing. I can't talk about the things I do like for that very reason, but I guess I can mumble my way though this.
First of fucking all KMM better fix this shit with Christian. He is a MacKeltar and I am a huge fan of that entire series, he needs a happy ending like all the rest of them. Find a woman, fall in love, do the bonding, find out she's a virgin, have lots of kids. Out all off the men circling Dani he is far and away the highest on the rapey scale. Not in an excusable way either just straight up thinking about raping her or in more friendly verbiage "take her". I don't care if he is turning into a demon or the 4th Unseelie Prince, or whatever-the-fuck, I DON'T CARE! Christian you need to fucking stop it.
Dancer needs to own up to whatever skeletons he's got in his closet because it's chock full and pretending to be Mr. Normal is getting on my damn nerves.
Ryodan is... well... frankly he's an asshole, but so are all of the 9 so that's not hard to accept. It's how he tries to cage her to keep her safe that enrages me, he tries to teach her lessons on how to treat him and how to act and it makes me sick. Dani made a reference in her head about not being a dog made to heal and just wish so much she would have fought harder against him. I felt a little like a ping pong ball through out this book being ricocheted back and forth between "this is creepy she's 14" and "ok ok, but it's more than that" and to be honest I think this entire book is mostly made up of grey area.
After my reread I marinated on Ryodan's motives for awhile and came up with the conclusion that a being as old as he is, he's never seen anything like her and she might be the only thing that could ever give him what he wants. In the mean time he is, in the only way he knows how, trying to keep her safe and be there for her. In fact it's the exact same thing Barrons did with Mac, making her move in, training her, working with her, claiming ownership of her all in the name of "protecting his interests" which we all know is a pile of lies. If you think Barrons didn't want her from the second she stumbled her ass into BB&B you are delusional. Their methods for maintaining the upper hand were considerably different, Barrons was withholding and manipulative, Ryo was more aggressive and violent. Doesn't change the fact that it was the Same. Exact. Motive, to claim and protect what they felt to be theirs. I can't really articulate how I feel about Ryodan specifically other than I'm forcing myself to stay neutral, for now. There are times that I'm disgusted by him, but on some level, I get it.
The innocence Dani shows every time she miscalculates the mens reaction to her makes me smile. It's the only bit of innocence she allows to show because she is simply unaware that she is wrong. It may be the only bit of her childhood that has remained in tact and I was happy to see KMM keep that thread throughout the entire book. Dani is so jaded and filled with teenage arrogance with some seriously deep trust issues, I couldn't help but root for her. All I can say is I cannot wait to see who she becomes in the coming books, I too think she will be one hell of a woman.
This wait for Burned has been horrible, I'm trying not to get my hopes ups for January considering how many times it's been pushed back. But I think January is definitely happening!